2nd Christmas Without Papa (2013)

It's the 2nd Christmas without Papa around. Of course, this one's less painful than the one in 2012 but it is still PAINFUL!! God, we miss him badly and I know that deep in our hearts we only have one wish- for him to be with us again, and knowing that it's impossible then we go to our next option of offering a prayer for him and just be present for each other.  I'm glad that our family is closer now but also sad that we had to experience this kind of loss before getting closer to each other. I mean, we were fine way before but what we have right now is some kind of a bond that is mixed with a fear of losing each other...



Merry Christmas Papa!! Please pray for us, that God may give us strength without you. You're always in our prayers Papa, never a day passes without thinking of you and a prayer offered for you. We love you Papa!!

2nd Memorial Tattoo

I have gotten my 2nd Tribute tat for my father several days after his 1st Death Anniversary and just a couple of days before Christmas. I did it to honor his memories and also the pain I've went through with it signifies the end of my mourning. But as I've stated with my recent blog, I don't think my grief will end. Nevertheless, it's one of the gifts that I had for him as I do believe that my prayers, cherishing his memories and the pain I had while getting the tat done are the intangible things that I feel are worth offering to him.

It's his signature with a heart!! :)


I love you so much Pops! Don't know if you still feel our love or we will meet again but FAITH is the only thing that keeps me holding on. 

Papa's First Death Anniversary

365 days. Yes. It has been a year since my Dad left us.

365 days filled with happiness, sorrow, grief, regrets and longing. Days with sudden chuckles brought about by his memories and moments of outbursts- tears from the pain of losing him. Whenever the truth hits me, the realization just comes over and over again- we will never bring him back. God has taken my dad away from us, but closer to Him. 

Last December 10, we have celebrated his First Death Anniversary or "Babang Luksa". My mom told me that it's the time where the mourning of the bereaved families end. We have decided to offer a mass for him in St. Joseph's Parish Anonas, Q.C. A prayer ceremony filled with songs was also held at his resting place in the afternoon. We had 12 white balloons to commemorate him. At around 5 pm, we have decided to head to Renaissance Cafeteria at the Renaissance Convention Center, in Riverbanks Center Marikina. We had our closest family and relatives attend the dinner for our Papa. 

The prayer ceremony held at his resting place

Hope that balloon reaches you Pops! :)

Our Giveaways

Papa

The Buffet

Truly, we have enjoyed the buffet!

The tarp made my Mom cry while we were on our way to Papa's resting place. 

The giveaways- colorful cupcakes! 

I'm so glad that we're able to pull it off successfully! 


As for me, I don't think this grief will end at that point. Right at this very moment, I couldn't imagine myself not grieving for him. I will cherish his memories and I could say that with surety, but the pain of him leaving us will still hurt till the very end- I know.