A Message About Heaven?

Last Tuesday, the scent of fresh flowers surrounded my room for almost 10 minutes, I even called my Ate Lita's attention if someone doing's some laundry downstairs! It's funny coz there's none. I'm not even surprised if he visited us especially now that we are a few days close to my brother's birthday. Last Wednesday, my bro had a dream about Papa. My brother narrated that he found my Papa lying on a bed. He looked good and healthy. He was telling my brother these words: "I'm fine staying there. We are planting crops. We are farming. There's this big guy over there who watches over us. We are fine."

When I heard those words, I just felt a sudden lump on my throat. I didn't know which belief should I trust on and I admit, I did question. Is it just a mere product of my brother's imagination? Or is it my dad's message to us telling him that he's already happy with the life he has gained after death with the Lord? I prefer to believe the latter. Indeed, faith it is.

The other day my hubby offered a mass for Papa alongside offering a mass for our neighbor, Tita Edith, who died last Thursday in her sleep. She was very loving and generous and she loved kids! I know Tita Edith and Papa have now met in heaven! :)




Dad, brother Eric's birthday is today. Please pray for him that he may have good health and more years full of blessings and opportunities. Pray for us too that God may continually guide and bless us. We miss you Pa! I love you so much Papa! Please comfort me as I tend to miss you more now. The reality of you being gone is slowly sinking in now and it's still painful. Please Pa, comfort me, mama and the whole family. 

Missing My Pops

Would you believe that when I was falling asleep while typing, I accidentally typed the word "Papa" without knowing it? He's definitely in my heart.

My First Birthday Without Papa

My 29th birthday will  be tomorrow. I should be happy as I'll be having a triple celebration- one with my hubby and son,  the 2nd one would be with my mom and siblings and the 3rd one's on Thursday after my Vacation Leave with my teammates. I am happy- well I should be. I am grateful to God for all the blessings and years He continues to give me, but honestly speaking I feel a bit sad. It's because it'll be my first birthday without my Papa. I couldn't believe the fact that I'll be celebrating it without him around. It sometimes doesn't sink in, but now it does- and it freakin' hurts.

Tomorrow we're planning to go and visit his resting place in the afternoon before my birthday dinner. Looking back, I remember my birthday parties when I was a kid with him, and he was always present too in my son's birthday parties. I miss him so much. Most of the time, I think that he will always be remembered and he will forever stay in my heart but that thought doesn't console me now that my birthday is approaching and all I have are just his memories. I know if he's here, he would greet me "Happy birthday Joy and will give me a kiss and hug... Oh boy, I super miss him. :(



"Pops, tomorrow is my 29th birthday. Thanks for being with me for more than 28 years. The things you've taught me will remain in me and the lessons in life you've shared with me will continually inspire me, my son and the next generations. I thank you for everything. Please pray for me and our family that God will always guide us, protect us, grant us good health and continually bless us. I love you Papa."